I can't tell you just how happy it makes me to see all of my prayers (4 years worth) coming to fruition. Beckahm and Amari's relationship has blossomed into something I have yearned so deeply for. Sure they argue and fight and annoy each other on a daily basis, but the love, the tenderness, they care they have for each other runs so deep now.
Just to see Beckahm, after his soccer game when he could have ran back on the field to kick the ball with this teammates, run over and say "I just want to see Amari" (and that is just ONE of the many examples), just shows me how much they care for one another.
A few things that have improved greatly that I love seeing—it truly warms my heart:
- They have loved sleeping in the same room together
- They play now together multiple times a day. I love seeing and hearing their imaginations at work.
- They miss each other when the other is away
- When they have playdates with other kids they still include one another and love being around one another.
- When one is hurt or sad the other (usually Amari) will go and check on them and shows concern
- They encourage and support each other in their interests (Amari will clap for Beckahm at his soccer practices, and Becks will encourage Amari when he is trying to learn to ride his bike)
It moves me to tears to know that I WAS INSPIRED to keep Beckahm at home this year. It has been such a difficult decision because I never want to hold him back, but I can see answers to why it was necessary. I feel like Beckahm is acting more his age—his curiosity about age appropriate things are coming out; he is so much kinder and inclusive of his brother (when he was going to K he came across like he was better than Amari in a lot of ways; he was just simply maturing too fast). I am so proud of Beckahm for helping me out, for loving his brother and for being such a great leader in our home. I feel like Amari is getting better with his speech and that he growing up more and more as Beckahm is more attentive to him and makes him feel like he is valuable and important. I hope this brotherhood and this love that they share continues as they grow up.
We did have a pretty scary moment. This park is HUGE and towards the end of the day I lost Amari. Becks and I went looking for him for 20 minutes and couldn't find him. Becks started to cry, scared something happened to his brother, and I was panicking. I told Beckahm we needed to say a prayer as it was getting dark soon. We went over to another area and a long ways a way Becks spotted him. He had seem some young boys running for track and he decided to up and follow them. They were, THANKFULLY, trying to help him find his mom. I am grateful I had that experience, despite it terrifying me. Beckahm was able to learn, once again, of the power of prayer. And it made him realize just how much he loved his brother.
